Pascal Derrien

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Juke Box

Juke Box

1978 I was not quite ten yet as I am a December baby but a part of me think it was quite a defining moment as far as my musical education is concerned. My parents were not really into culture, books or anything of the sort but somehow, we had a turn table at home with some crappy speakers. Now this was not a state of the art device by any means, it was probably the most basic model of the Phillips range but none the less the sound was decent and you could still play LP’s, Eps and other singles that were called ‘’45 Tours’’ in France.

When my parents were working, I was very often left to my own device in whatever apartment we were renting. Hence, I spent many Wednesday afternoons organizing improvised music parties for me and my cat with the red turntable. I would be playing anything I could get my hands on from bag pipe bands to music motion pictures soundtrack and other top 30 singles.

I got pretty curious overtime and started to investigate almost systemically all the B sides of bands such as the Police, the Eagles or Elton John but fair to say I ended up sometimes listening to less convincing tunes from French pop artists too. Occasionally I was lucky enough to discover great music such as the early works from Billy Joel and my all-time favourite Kate Bush. Those two artists have stayed with me forever since and to this day my emotion levels never stay intact when I hear the first notes of Honesty or the Wuthering Heights.

My father did not take his mother’s death two years prior very well and developed a coping mechanism that involved heavy drinking under the false pretext of socializing. I became the perfect alibi when thirst and anxiety knocked at his door, it became a habit to take me with him on his liquid expeditions to the local Café Bar. My mum was probably too weak to protest or thought he would behave or reign himself in providing I was with him, que neni :-(.

How sick is this to bring a child on a daily jolly and let him witness intoxicated discussions, watch your own father staring blankly at a glass or other despicable behaviours. Fuck you that’s all I have to say for making me go thru this (sorry but I feel better now :-)).

There was so much grenadine a l’eau that I could swallow and bored out of my wits I often wandered towards the juke box sitting in the corner, sometimes the usual suspects would give me a few cents to play a tune I wanted. That’s the advantage with barflies you see, they are creatures of habit so you know where and what to expect. What surprised me though was when Axel the owner’s 15-year-old son spoke to me once about music and asked me what I was into.

My credibility as music expert was at stake so I regurgitated all the B-sides titles and most obscure names of the bands I could come up with and I think I made up one or two for good measure. Whatever were my answers it seemed to satisfy him as he asked me if I wanted to borrow  his Stained Class album from a band called Judas Priest. He had two of them as his auntie got him one too many. I said yes and thank my new friend profusely.

The following Wednesday afternoon, myself, the cat and the red turntable got introduced to Beyond The Realms of Death a power ballad that hijacked my senses and trashed my emotions up and down. I did not understand or read English at the time but I just connected with the song in a way that troubled me when I finally got to understand the lyrics.

1985 Juke Box was the name a little record shop somewhere in Montparnasse in Paris, they specialized in imports, picture discs and hard to find records. The owner was a music bible and knew everything there was to know about underground music. I came back one day with a record from a band called Corrosion of Conformity, the cover was hideous but the name of the band had a ring to it I must say. Animosity was the title of the short album. 

The back sleeve was full of pictures almost a collage of rehearsals, urban pics and other working class Americana way of life shots. I was fascinated by the sound, the rebellious lyrics and the attitude transpiring from the vinyl itself. I quickly became a regular face of the local punk hard core scene and found myself catapulted into the NY scene a few years later……

I guess sometimes you just got to






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Pascal Derrien

4 years ago #14

yes indeed the F word had to written in its entirety to keep its integrity you don't break half an egg you break an egg or is it a leg ? thanks Dean Owen :-)

Pascal Derrien

4 years ago #13

Praveen Raj Gullepalli I did not know that Sir so thank you for sharing this snapshot :-)

Sara Jacobovici

4 years ago #12

"Sounds" like you know more than an expert Pascal Derrien. Well said!

Dean Owen

4 years ago #11

For a minute I mistook confused Judas Priest with one of my favourites, Maxi Priest (just recalled a story which will make my next article). Bitter sweet memories. Thanks for the reminder to sons and daughter everywhere to once in a while say F^*k u to unworthy fathers everywhere. Made me feel better too! Just read that vinyl is making a comeback!

Pascal Derrien

4 years ago #10

thanks Sara Jacobovici no expert but it seems music helps conveying emotions without having the gatekeeper asking for an ID, I often complement my posts with music as it does empower nicely the ideas and words it is more than just a supplement or a decorative element for me well at least in my book :-)

Sara Jacobovici

4 years ago #9

Music is part of our beginning. Thanks for sharing your story Pascal Derrien. I often ask my clients in Music Therapy to do a music autobiography. Very powerful work. I am always a privileged witness.

Pascal Derrien

4 years ago #8

thanks Franci\ud83d\udc1dEugenia Hoffman appreciate you take time to share those personal thoughts with us :-)

I can relate, Pascal. I was a latchkey kid and once I got home with no one around but me, I went straight to our source of music. Music was and is a major part of my life. My mother also loved music, which wore off on me. Music has and always will be my refuge. “Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to loneliness.” ― Maya Angelou

Pascal Derrien

4 years ago #6

thanks Ren\u00e9e \ud83d\udc1d Cormier for sharing this story I like it :-)

Renée 🐝 Cormier

4 years ago #5

You really took me back in time, Pascal. Music was everything in our lives when we were growing up. My maternal grandparents died when I was 4 ( 1968) and my mother bought a console colour television and a console stereo. We were anything but rich, but nobody else in the neighbourhood had that. The minute my parents would leave the house, the stereo went on full bast. I know the words to nearly every song on every album we had, and we all had such different tastes in music. Vinyl wasn't so bad with its scratches and skips. The memories are great.

Pascal Derrien

4 years ago #4

Axel Bauer Lyon Brave but the pop suckers say he is too rock :-) thanks for dropping by

Lyon Brave

4 years ago #3

HAHA I've never listened to French Pop. Maybe i should start. Any suggestions?

Pascal Derrien

4 years ago #2

thanks Paul Walters I am taking a bow sir, thanks for dropping by :-)

Paul Walters

4 years ago #1

Love this piece Pascal Derrien " when thirst and anxiety knocked at his door" great writing !

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