Pascal Derrien

6 years ago · 2 min. reading time · ~10 ·

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Relation Cheap

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Its not like as if we had met on line and then I started to call you mine

I should have known you were not a love leader but more likely a sentimental spammer

I should have noticed you were prone to behave like a teenager wandering at all hours 

A slight disillusion of grandeur, an odd demeanour, a motion affected by a deafening stupor

This how I realized that what I took for candour was just the attributes of an attention seeker

One of those who keeps hiding his multiple accounts on Tinder and pretend he is unique at

The parlour


Give me a like that my numbers can reach a spike  

Give me your love and all of the above


If I am honest I knew it would never be epic but I never thought it would become that toxic  

You only thought of it lightly, you said that nobody who would care about my life's intricacy

You bastard ! You even smiled when you called me clumsy and loaded the word parody

You added jokingly that it was a game, that I needed to be stronger to be able to handle fame

That I should be willing to accept that sometimes mental ping pong can go wrong

That it's like a battle in the Mekong


Give me a like that my numbers can reach a spike  

Give me your love and all of the above 


You refuted perversion, I called it aggression , you responded fact distortion, that it was all out of proportion

You pretended it did not happen that my recollection was not even and you posted a smile to your mam on Instagram

Denial is regression on speed dial but it was definitely not legitimate to treat me

Like a primate


Give me a like that my numbers can reach a spike  

Give me your love and all of the above


I tried to get you to unfollow me almost naively

I begged for a pause, I even tried to get us to hit refresh

But there was not stopping you, you were so obsessed for more blood and flesh

Nobody wanted to notice, moral duty is out of practice so I guess there was no point in calling the police

hashtag I only brag when I pretend to smoke a fag


Give me a like that my numbers can reach a spike  

Give me your love and all of the above 


It was not only the heat of the moment, it was apparent you so sadistically enjoyed that side of harassment

I believed that of me all you felt was resent, I remember clearly you made that comment

I cant stand to think about you being in the vicinity but I can't  bear others pity

I will no longer cry and I will no longer be shy


Because of all I have been thru

But mostly because of you

I finally wrote it 


#Me Too




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Comments

Lisa Vanderburg

6 years ago #24

#32
guess you reminded me of being how raw a lime would feel having its skin scraped off :)

Pascal Derrien

6 years ago #23

#31
thanks Lisa Vanderburg when it comes to abrasiveness I think there was no other and I am not even sure I have managed to capture the intensity 🤔

Lisa Vanderburg

6 years ago #22

Lusty ode to social media Pascal Derrien - just love its abrasiveness!!

Proma Nautiyal

6 years ago #21

#28
It is, Pascal Derrien...you brought to light a matter, an occurrence, which is all too recurrent. In this age of Tinder and Insta, we don't even know what is true or false, anymore. I recently came to know about 2 such occurrences, and what I had heard both of them say was exactly what you put in such a poetic manner.

Pascal Derrien

6 years ago #20

ah you are very good to me Proma \ud83d\udc1d Nautiyal :-) gosh that's a very compliment and I am just glad it does resonate with some people some articles are more important than others I suppose :-)

Proma Nautiyal

6 years ago #19

I have no words, Pascal Derrien. I don't know how you write what you write. For each and every piece is ever more powerful than the last one.

Pascal Derrien

6 years ago #18

#23
many thanks Savvy Raj :-) it was important to me to write about this. Social media was just a pretext a mere context to write about an embarrassing legacy we all carry in terms of men/women relationship. I tried to do my best to make justice to the topic you words are encouraging :-)

Pascal Derrien

6 years ago #17

#21
many thanks for the praise much appreciated especially on this topic, while this is a fictional story this is inspired by many told and untold stories from women out there

Pascal Derrien

6 years ago #16

#20
I am so sorry to break those news to you in such a tactless way Ken Boddie but stay strong OK ✊️

Pascal Derrien

6 years ago #15

#19
that's a great idea Franci\ud83d\udc1dEugenia Hoffman, beBee Brand Ambassador I don't remember seeing anything about that in any terms of service anywhere , whether it is anti bullying policy or report protocol actually :-(

Ken Boddie

6 years ago #14

You mean beBee isn’t real? 😢 And SM doesn’t stand for the Sand Man?

Randall Burns

6 years ago #13

#16
P.S. (I could be an 8 year old boy, albeit a very smart one, playing games with ALL of you! :-). you never know...)

Randall Burns

6 years ago #12

#16
Oh yes, absolutely Pascal Derrien, I agree, I find it easier to "fathom" someone and am far more comfortable with them when I'm looking at them "eye to eye", and yes sometimes they will still fool me but the internet is a whole other universe, (for all I know you could be an 8 year old boy, albeit a very smart one, playing games with all of us, but that's OK too, because I've taken that into consideration :-)) Always a pleasure speaking with you Pascal Derrien. :-)

Pascal Derrien

6 years ago #11

#13
indeed Randall Burns as you should while I took the online for context abuse and power games also take place in real life I am afraid 😳

Pascal Derrien

6 years ago #10

#14
many thanks Debasish Majumder glad this one worked for you 😌

Debasish Majumder

6 years ago #9

amazing buzz Pascal Derrien! enjoyed read and shared. thank you for the buzz.

Randall Burns

6 years ago #8

Well, that is an interesting buzz Pascal Derrien It was entertaining but I must say that ALL of my interactions online I take with a "grain of salt", to me it's just one step away from reality.

Pascal Derrien

6 years ago #7

#11
ah thank you I started that one a while back in my head and managed to pen it the last two days. Good to hear its relatable and credible :-)

🐝 Fatima G. Williams

6 years ago #6

Wow a killer post pal Pascal Derrien . You truly got into our shoes indeed Denial is regression on speed dial.

Pascal Derrien

6 years ago #5

#9
thanks Brian a twisted world social media or not.... social media has just amplified and ''exposed'' it I suppose :-(

Pascal Derrien

6 years ago #4

ah thanks CityVP \ud83d\udc1d Manjit the word regression was actually not in my first version and only came up at editing stage :-) I wanted to write about this topical issue for a while but I wanted to wait a bit and I also had in mind to see if I could try to pen this from a woman's angle even though I'm am obviously not a woman :-)

CityVP Manjit

6 years ago #3

It is funny how we can say the same thing but written as opinion it can sound inward, pessimistic and angry, but written as a well crafted story it can resonate genius and it creates a jumping in point where even people whose lives lived unrelated to this, can relate with this. Then again the human imagination is an impossible thing making the impossible possible - an example being "Rosebud" - was it a sled that Orson Wells rode in as a child or as the fertile imagination of Gore Vidal - a specific clit? http://www.nybooks.com/articles/1989/08/17/rosebud/ There was one line that really hooked me in "Relation Cheap" was "Denial is regression on speed dial" and leaving it at that just that turns those words into genius because there is so much packed into those six words. The closing distracts because it ends up with the word "primate". If this line needs to be qualified then I suggest "Denial is regression on speed dial and the hang-up is me, I am not your tissue paper for your one-night call". "Denial is regression on speed dial" is a great line on its own right no matter how much we go on craft a closing for it.

Pascal Derrien

6 years ago #2

#4
indeed I was actually thinking about this story in a few ways, traditional with on line dimension and online at the onset ending up in a bittersweet and abusive relationship. Thanks for noiticing and commenting Claire L Cardwell :-)

Pascal Derrien

6 years ago #1

#1
Thanks for being the first commentator and making some on point comment on this piece :-)

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